#Mypast

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One of my long lost best friends had this picture of me and my daddy. I didn t even know it existed until today. My daddy died when I was 19. I was such a daddy s girl too when I was little, even chose to live w/ him after my parents divorced at 6. Things were not always easy because he had an addiction to pain medicine after hurting his back. I went through a lot as a child, saw things I ll never forget.. etc. But those things don t define me. However, they made me who I am today which is a strong, independent woman. I learned how to take care of myself at a very young age. I m a survivor, not a victim. When I was 14 my dad dropped me and seth off w/ my mom for the summer and never picked us back up. Even though I went through so much at my dads, I wanted to go back w/ him. After all, he was my daddy. I loved him. He just had a terrible addiction and couldn t handle money well. We didn t talk for 4 years. Not by choice, apparently he struggled w/ his pain pill addiction and started having seizures and forgot at some point he had children. Not sure what was all true, that s besides the point. A week before he passed he called me to come visit him. I visited w/ him and then he died exactly a week later. I m grateful to God that I got to see him that last time. But I felt robbed of my childhood having been through what I experienced, we moved around so much. All of my friends continued to go to private school and we were kicked out because my dad couldn t afford it anymore. Sometimes we would go w/ out eating. I got picked on and bullied at school when I started my first year at a public school. It was a very tough time. For years after he died, I was emotionless, then I grew angry. How dare he just die? Why did he have to be selfish and be hooked on pain medicine? It also affected the type of men I dated. When you feel abandoned, and unloved you typically pick the same kind of men to date. Then one day, I broke down and cried and forgave him. I pray he forgives me too for being so bitter for so many years. I would give anything to see him again. Forgiveness is a beautiful thing. Give your daddies hugs everyday!! ❤️
One of the luckiest things that can happen to me in life is, I think to have a happy Childhood♡
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Ps: when I was 9 years old
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#childhood #children #child #throwback #past #happychild #growup #wonderfullife #world #photographers #photograph #photos #mypast #happylife
31 mei 2009 - The past may hurt, but you can either run from it or learn from it ❤ #linkinbio
Today I did something psycologists may not reccommend to their mentally unstable patients: I opened my external disk and met moments of my past again, which I thought was forgotten. However, It is only actually asleep. There s also beautiful pics like this one... Back in 2011 with my humble Panasonic DMC-FS5
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#neverlookback #ireland #backintime #backtothepast #memories #limerick #church #sunset #sunrise #sky #mypast #past #nikon #nofilter #wanderlust #tbt #onceuponatime #memyselfandi #recuerdos #dontlookback #panasonic #photography #igers #travel #travelphotography #flight #flightattendant #crew #crewlife
I d like to apologise to anyone who had the displeasure of knowing me 8 years ago (Year 8 going on Year 9 at SPS), I really was an annoying, nerdy little shit when it came to Facebook games at the time 😂 #Timehop #facebookgames #Year9Banter #Nerd #MyPast #BooYow
Ngày bắt đầu cũng là ngày kết thúc 💔u stole my heart and u broke it too #onelasttime #6months #neverenough #hurt #tears #staystrong #forgethim #mypast #myyouth #mymemory ❤️
"People are strange
When your a stranger
Live in danger
Live endangered
Wolf in the manger
I Slept on the rocks
on forest s lawn
under hells fire
I was warned
The only desire I could see was for a better life
Wishing I would see it tomorrow
Then tomorrow came
I remembered all my sorrow
till the devil would rise up and grip me back down
just to borrow
My soul
but this time I told him
just keep it
fuck it man please take it ... i don t need it save the ones I love .. Believe it" - @fievelgw #freestyletext #write #clearthefog #victimawareness #dropthepoison #mentalhealthmatters #riseup #calgary #FiveOSix in the #FourOThree #seenfromabove #mypast #mypresent #loveone #familyfirst💯
#create #change #inspire #music
#Hoflandmusic #soundofmusic #donate to you local Canadian Mental Health Association #respect #truenorthstrongandfree #rideforhope #haveheart #LIONH3ART™ #build #support #desperado @jimmorrisonofficialfanpage
On my last visit to my home country I found some cool things, relics and treasured items in the house from my childhood till my Uni years.
I will post some here.
Got this book for £2 at a used books stand in Wales during my Undergrad.
Unpredictable,sudden and unforgiving you were,
You had that image of a bad-boy,
Your intensity drew me close,
Like the effect of fire on moth.
Your curiousity surrounded me,
and I jumped right in, dazzled by you,
All my thoughts tied to you.

Now just as a moth gives up slowly to the fire s wrath,
I surrendered myself to you,
Only to be used for your selfish needs.
And once you lost your fetish,
You left me burning,
Stranded on the sea.

You went away,
Just as fast and peaceful.

Like the aftermath of a storm,
All parts of me were lost, into complete chaos.
I tried hard to collect them,
Gather them and form back my soul,

But you left me so heart-broken,
And all of myself unwoven//.
Yesterday was picture day at school. I think this was about 3rd grade, 1977-ish. My sense of style got an early start. #sarcasm
#schoolpic #pictureday #mypast #mychildhood #memories
dear daddy.. terima kasih utk pernah hadir dlm hidupku, terima kasih atas semua usaha jerih payah dan kerja keras km selama ini, terima kasih atas kesabaran km dlm menghadapi sifatku yg byk kekurangan ini.. maafkan aq yg pernah mengecewakanmu begitupun aq yg sdh memaafkan km.. semoga km bs bahagia dgn seseorang yg lbh baik dr aq dan menemukan kebahagiaan dgn caramu sendiri.. cm 1 pesanku, jgn pernah lupakan anak km anak kita Arthuro, buatlah dia bahagia dgn semampu mu.. kita jaga hubungan baik kita demi anak kita.. God bless u 🙏
#mypast
Te souviens-tu de ces moments passés, te souviens-tu de ces moments partagés, l amour, ses hauts, ses bas, nous a bercé, avec toi je me vois pour des années, profiter maintenant de chacune de nos retrouvailles est notre destinée, je t aime @loiicpablo #loveislove #gaycouple #gaybordeaux #gayfrench #gaylove #❤️ #loveyou #shapeofyou #mylover #picoftheday #7months #already #mypast #mypresent #myfuture #darling
#countryside #windblowing #changes #timechange #maize #cloudyday #thestormiscoming #landscape #nofilter #photography #passion #somewhere #country #mypast #walking #goodcompany #goodlife #happiness #summertime #goingonadventures #wonder #speechless #nature #appreciate #loveisallaround #details #somethingtothinkabout #trip #holiday #feelinggood
Prendre le temps pour soi et se remémorer ses années où danser m épanouissait tellement. .
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#feeling #tonight #mypast #danserpourvivre #dance #whiteandpink #inspiration #prendreletemps #profiterdechaqueinstant #rennes #rennaise #engaged #wed2018 #yvesrocher
#countryside #photography #passion #old #relax #freetime #freespirit #bycicle #goingaround #maize #country #landscape #summertime #sun #letthesunshine #letshavefun #trip #goodlifes #goodvibes #beautiful #bluesky #freedom #mysoul #beyourselfeveryoneelseisalreadytaken #lovewhatyoudo #doingsomethingdifferent #agreatbigworld #happiness #precious #mypast
And i think to myself....what a wonderful world
#countryside #grandma #traveller #holiday #summer #evergreen #lovelyday #summerlovin #appreciate #loveisallaround #details #landscape #wonder #homesweethome #relax #freespirit #trip #goodcompany #adreamisawishyourheartmakes #happiness #simplicity #wild #sentimentaljourney #mypast #memories
Lil cerebration from #backtotheroots #mypast #healthresults 🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋🌋
Ku nikmati segala kesakitanku dengan tersenyum & bercanda..kunikmati kepedihanku dengan berserah & berpasrah..karna akan ada waktu dimana semua kesakitan & kepedihanku akan ku ingat & akan ku jadikan sebagai pengalaman untuk berbagi dengan masa depan...
#moralight #katakatabijak #sedikitdewasa #katabijak #katamotivasi #nevergiveup #keepstrong #keepsmile #positivethinking #myfuture #mypast #masalalu #masaindah #masadepan #masadepancerah #sharing
"Terkadang pria yang baik, berada di antara para bajingan"
#theclan #dragonfamily #familia #mypast #thugs #past #mylife #youtube #2005 #2017 #myvideo #video #brotherhoods #mafioso #underworldlife #triad #mafioso
#adultcoloring #coloring #fun #love #imagine #mymind #mypast #myvision #myview #art #420life #420 #high #hippie #weed #peace #firesoul #loveconquersall #mylife #loveme
#adultcoloring #coloring #hippie #high #420 #420life #weed #love #lit #art #behindhersmile #mypast #mylife #myfuture #myworld #myway #myvision #myview
#adultcoloring #coloring #retro #hippie #mylife #mypast #myfuture #myworld #myway #art #myvision #myview #love #lasvegas
#mypast
#hope
#singlelove
#objectif
#avignon
#nevergiveup
#nouveaudepart
#love
#soleil
#mode
#instagood
#photooftheday
#motivation
#regimeuse
#regime
#diet
#eatclean
#nopornfood
#pertedepoids
#transformation
#selfie
#weightloss
#shapeoftheday
Qd les austin se retrouvent .. c est une histoire de famille. ... #mypast
#hope
#singlelove
#objectif
#avignon
#nevergiveup
#nouveaudepart
#love
#soleil
#mode
#instagood
#photooftheday
#motivation
#regimeuse
#regime
#diet
#eatclean
#nopornfood
#pertedepoids
#transformation
#selfie
#weightloss
#shapeoftheday
Les mustang resteront mon coup de coeur 😍

#mypast
#hope
#singlelove
#objectif
#avignon
#nevergiveup
#nouveaudepart
#love
#soleil
#mode
#instagood
#photooftheday
#motivation
#regimeuse
#regime
#diet
#eatclean
#nopornfood
#pertedepoids
#transformation
#selfie
#weightloss
#shapeoftheday
#adultcoloring #coloring #art #mypast #myfuture #live #art #myway #myworld #mymind #justme #beautiful #behindhersmile #believeinyourself
Now he is just my past and I was going to forget him. I m going to be a new people who don t care about him. 🙋 .
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#mypast #ex #bad #bye
Beli apa2 nyari yg ada hadiahnya ahahahha
Belom ada yg didengerin nih.
Hadiah dari KFC beli paket combo berdua kalo gak salah yak.
Berdua sama siapa?
Sama kamu, dia, eta, anuan😆
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#masalalu #mypast #memories #nobaper #laper #maumakan #KFC
Walking in my purpose, living in my passion, helping people with my truth gives me an unexplainable feeling!!! My curses manifested into my calling 🙌🏽
Terima kasih telah s4 datang & mengisi...
Walaupun pada akhirnya,,
Kamupun memilih untuk tetap pergi... #Ring #MyPast
11 anni di noi ♥ #11years #11ans #11anni #11yearsandstillgoingstrong #mypast #mypresent #myfuture #myhusband @ferra_marco
#mypast #mypresent #myfuture@champalot550
2014- when we first time see & be there. Years gone n only whats left is memories. I will try to remember the good things n forget bad things. Life continues n im stronger n wiser. #life #memories #happiness #mypast #oldgooddays #Side #stronger #wiser #learning #broken #remember #notforget #bf #lifecontinues
I used to see this before... I wish I could see it like this again. She s so big that she looks like me now. #missmybaby #mypast #canitbenow #smilingangel #sadgir #adhdawareness #adhd_life #bipolarmind #hbp #polarBpad
My childhood block, omg 🙈 nothing s changed but everything s so different 🙈 strange emotions.. i can see the window of my room, sooo weird!!! #past #eiguliai #kaunas #memories #block #weird #mypast #exciting
Slowly getting moving this morning. Stayed up late having some Saturday summer fun with the kiddos before back to school next week. .

Imagine sleeping soundly and being awakened by BEEP. BEEP. BEEP. and then the sound of an alarm siren...Nothing will stir up anxiety more than your house alarm going off at 1245am. Holy stress hormone, fight or flight, heart attack. Yup that s what happened last night.
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Ugh. I suffer from anxiety. We had a traumatic, anxiety inducing situation years ago at our old house, involving a shooting and someone dying just feet away from our home, which flared my anxiety to epic levels. I would literally cry at a pin drop at that time. Anxiety meds were necessary...not an option. Counseling was required and still is at times. .

It s a little coincidental that just earlier this week I spoke a bit about my history of anxiety on my Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/TanyaEHealthandWellness.
My heart was literally racing, my body was shaking and I wasn t sure if someone was breaking into our house. Long story short, noone was breaking in and we figured out that one of our doors had been left unlocked and was not closed all the way. Phew. .

It took me a while to come down from that. It s probably going to take days to comes down from that. Our memories and fears stick to us like glue. Today I m going to enjoy every moment with my family and just breathe. Tonight I ll check all doors and windows, take a breath (and maybe a pill 🤣🤣) and go to sleep.
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Anxiety, I won t let you beat me.
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#fitmom #girlsgotgoals #momboss #girlboss #healthcoach #fitnesscoach #health #healthy #exercise #mentalhealth #strong #strongereveryday #conqueranxiety #anxiety #fear #fears #mypast #brainblock #bestrong
My Past..!!
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pic : @pramince
#past #throwback #streetdance #bboy #hiphop #loncatloncatan #jump #jumphigh #high #streetphotography #bundaranhi #mypast #latepost
Now I don t want to know where you go or where you been.. #mypast #itaintme
Люблю цветы в доме. они всегда и они везде. запах, цвет, нежность, свет и любовь. они как памятник моему прошлому. Воспоминания это и есть срезанные цветы. Можно любоваться, но плодов они не принесут... #mydream #mypast #mylife #mylove #❤️
🎤🎤 I m in love with your (*baca my) body..😍😂
#lol #singing #shapeofme #edsheeran #mypast #buktisejarah
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